Don't know Anymore

@merci_patrick

Watching through closed eyes from a distance

All because close relationships hurt

Feelings are a hindrance

So hate should make it work

But I can only hate 

Unless I once loved right,... Wrong

But yeah

I once loved but now I hate

I guess it's cool since it's all wrong

The most petrifying state is serenity

When in two ticks it goes off

You know this atrocity

But soon sprint in fallen love

What keeps you happy

Is it the pain or the hug

The sane or the drug

The adrenaline or the songs

I remember what I forget

And the things that keep me happy

Are those I don't know anymore

How your stare hitches my breath

The days or nights I got lucky

Your short sleep and tiny snores

I guess I forget when I tell me truths like

I don't remember anymore

So I'll watch you again through closed eyes

And from a safe distance

So you don't hurt my heart

Or ask for the same last dance

When I know I needed you 

But only said hey

You know you needed me 

Yet you asked to stay

Backs against a thin wall

Same blade through our cell walls

Never bare enough to sip

But we slip same beer in our cup

You sang me to sleep

Then cut the ties off our chord

Changing through topics

Over a rouge phone call

You ask if am happy

Guess I don't know anymore

Yours truly MerciRick